I ate little, which means I'm good. I ate a lot, that means I'm bad. I ate something low-calorie - I'm great! I ate something high in calories - I have no willpower This morning my scales showed a plus - I behaved badly yesterday. Minus - I'm smart! I couldn't restrain myself and at the holiday I ate 2 pieces of cake instead of eating one salad all evening - I'm a weak-willed beast. Today after 18:00 I didn't eat anything - I'm great And so on and so forth.... Very often it turns out that in some strange way the self-esteem of a person with eating disorders or excess weight begins to depend on food. Consumption of “correct” food causes pride, joy, and delight. Consumption of the “wrong” - a feeling of guilt, shame, self-flagellation, remorse, a feeling of one’s badness, weakness, worthlessness. And so it comes to the point that some Marya Nikolaevna, who, let’s say, is a wonderful mother of 2 children, a good wife, a professional work, who understands painting or poetry, who has solved countless different problems in her life, who has built a career, who is financially independent - nevertheless, every evening, having eaten something “wrong”, she considers herself a weak-willed lazy animal who is unable to resist a bar of chocolate or a third bun. Moreover, considering herself bad and guilty of what she has done, our Marya Nikolaevna will unconsciously want only one thing - to punish herself. After all, the guilty are punished. Therefore, starting tomorrow, she will go on a diet, or today she will go to the fitness room (which she really doesn’t like at all), or drink a laxative, or even lock herself in the bathroom and induce vomiting in order to prevent excess calories will settle in her already not particularly slender body. Time will pass, and she will no longer be able to punish herself. And then guilt and anger towards yourself will be replaced by self-pity and annoyance at those around you: after all, they eat everything they want. And don't blame yourself! And am I forced to watch every calorie? I’ll want to feel sorry for myself, or maybe spit on everything, remove all prohibitions, breathe in at least a sip of “food freedom.” And then there will be a chocolate bar, bun, cake, seeds or something else nearby again. And again Marya Nikolaevna’s brain will call this food “wrong”, and the housewife who ate it all will be called bad and weak-willed. And the circle will close. And living in this circle of “overeating - guilt - punishment - pity - overeating” Marya Nikolaevna will probably never ask herself the question: at what point in her life and why did food begin to determine her self-esteem? And it may take time to eventually understand at some point: “I am good by default; I am worthy of love, recognition, acceptance, respect, joy; at the same time, I have eating disorders that I don’t seem to be able to cope with.” I can figure it out on my own. And precisely because I treat myself well, I believe that I have the right to seek help. To establish a normal relationship with food and enjoy food without feeling guilty. “Pleasure without feeling guilty is exactly that. and must bring food. In addition to the benefits, in addition to satiety. And learning to feel good regardless of food, weight, body volume is exactly what few people begin their path to slimness with, at the same time, this is exactly where such a path should begin. ***If you want to learn to live without anxiety about nutrition and your own weight; eat what you really like; stop limiting, criticizing and shaming yourself all the time because of food, then I invite you to my online training “Food. Weight. Freedom”!"