80 years old Freud, analyzes his experiences in a letter to Romain Rolland “my creative powers are running out” So, is all this really the way we studied at school? I only doubted that I would ever be here. Accompanied by a brief attack of derealization. For some reason, what he saw with his own eyes clearly fulfilled his expectations. He was aware of his real presence, but in a strange way it was difficult for him to perceive this reality. General characteristics of states of detachment (according to S. Freud) All of them perform a protective function - they help our “I” to distance myself from something, to convince ourselves that something is not there. Their connection with the past, with the baggage of memories of our “I” and early painful experiences that may have been repressed for a long time “Detached state” , “feeling of detachment” - associated with certain elements of the contents of the psyche and associated with their regulation A part of reality seems alien to us A part of our own “I” seems alien to us (depersonalization) Closely related Positive opposites - “false recognition”, “already seen”, “already heard” illusion in which we try to perceive something as belonging to our “I”, because during alienations we try to free ourselves from something. Subjects with crises of depersonalization carry a hidden narcissistic injury, located at the age of differentiation of self and non-self, which is activated through regression with each experience of intolerance in the absence of a narcissistic object. Object deprivation worsens their general relationship with the world, as well as with their own bodies. The phenomena of depersonalization turn out to be an approximate reproduction of the childhood crisis due to which the “normal” evolution of the differentiation of subject and object was disrupted: the immediate cause pathological incident turns out to be similar to the one that led to personality disorder. Insisting that depersonalized - he (the patient) does not refuse reality, he, on the contrary, clings to it,” “depersonalization is the opposite of delusion” (!) Originates in real life, when repressed childhood emotional complexes are revived by some external impression" Although Freud has plans to go to Corfu with his brother, he is suggested to go to Athens instead (a longer journey) This puts him in an inexplicably bad mood On the Acropolis he exclaims "I embrace with my eyes landscape, all this really exists. As a lyceum student, he was convinced of the reality of Athens, but this conviction was immersed in the subconscious, hence the surprise: “Does this really exist?” Suddenly the thought of a bad mood in Trieste comes to his mind: “So beautiful,” and then “ not worthy of this happiness" He then develops his ideas about the fate of everyone in relation to his super-ego by saying: "I never thought that I could go to Athens (a long way), and it was immersed in the unconscious" Once on the Acropolis, a feeling of strangeness , which he experiences is associated with doubt about the real existence of the Acropolis. Hence the perception of “what I see is unreal” and “depersonalization” as a disorder of self-awareness. He mentions repression, since the experiment on the Acropolis leads to “memory impairment”, but the memory of what? And he concludes “it is not true that in high school I doubted the real existence of Athens, I only doubted that I would ever see Athens with my own eyes” “To come this far is beyond any possibility, given the poor living conditions in my youth (to come such a long way )" - this is what S. Freud suppressed