A pair of higher mathematics, 2012. The teacher draws “ellipse pies” on the board and chatters something in a language I don’t know. Bored, sad and accidentally, or maybe deliberately out loud, not loudly with a bit of despair in my voice, I say: “Why do I need to know this?” The teacher got angry: If you have nothing to learn here, leave the audience! I left. And I skipped the entire higher mathematics course. I failed the final test and was given a test to take home, which I successfully solved with the knowledge of a friend from the physics and mathematics department. Checking the work, the teacher asked: - Do you want to say that you decided it yourself? - No, a friend from the physics and mathematics department helped. - What is her last name? - I can’t tell you. “I’ll give you credit for honesty,” the teacher grinned. “Thank you.” Mathematical statistics test, 2013. Here I knew why I needed it, but the numbers continued to terrify me. I took the test for 4 hours. I also often skipped math statistics, but it took a long time to take the test, not because I didn’t know. As it turned out, at the end I didn’t put a period somewhere in the sentence, and the teacher made me look for a mistake. And I looked for it in the calculations, of course. So they punished the truant. 2021. My husband enthusiastically plunged into the world of large numbers, analytics, and, like a child, he is happy that he has started a course in mathematical statistics. I choose an audiobook for the night, von Franz Maria - Louise “Divination and Synchrony” catches my eye. I turn it on, the beginning of the book leads to slight confusion - the history and use of numbers among the ancient peoples of the world... I listen. A! Ahhhh! Seriously? Mathematics is a product of the unconscious, a product of the “spirit”, which to this day is denied by great minds and used as a product of the mind. To my humanitarian mindset - this becomes an accessible explanation: “why and why”, knowledge comes. It’s only interesting now, do people who love mathematics so much know that with the help of numbers, finding solutions, they generate their unconscious experience? Or is there only reasonable mathematics left for the sake of other sciences? I remembered how some techies I know translate any difficulty into numbers. At first glance, it may seem that they are only interested in numbers. But, these numbers are perhaps symbols of what is happening on the dark side of the personality... And where your husband or wife begins to rationally count costs or something like that, with their help in their unconscious they look for answers: “Is it necessary? ? Can I?” They are looking for opportunities, resources, answers, processing requests using numbers. And I recommend the book. With respect to your mindset and opinion, your personal psychologist, Anastasia Shikhaleeva - Zakharenko Essays on working in prison, client cases in my telegram channel Understand a close mathematician or yourself : sign up for a consultation.