I wanted to read something. They suggested that there is such an author as Kurt Vonnegut. With my memory, it was difficult for me to figure out what I read from him and what I didn’t. First, it is important to look at the author, I began to think about his biography, how he was captured during the German counter-offensive in the Ardennes. All of Vonnegut's experiences were reflected in his books, especially in Slaughterhouse-Five, or the Children's Crusade. Where, among other things, the author touches upon the second world bombing of Dresden, inscribed forever in the dark pages. In my thoughtfulness, I began to automatically click on links leading to the contents of books. I began to read it, tempted by the desire to quickly find out what would happen. And then I discovered that I had already read some of them, but I didn’t want to read many of them. It seems that the book has already been downloaded, but there is something in it that I don’t want. Let there be something else there, but I understand that this is exactly what will be in it, I even begin to remotely remember what exactly. And the point is not that I spoiled the impression for myself, but the inevitability of the fact that this is exactly what will happen in the book! And I imagined how scary it would be if I were suddenly given a book about my life. And they made me read it. I probably would have immediately asked for a new incarnation. But what if the very fact of reading would change my life? But then the whole world would change. Like Bradbury's butterfly, remember? Inevitability and constancy are properties of our world that are necessary for the psyche. Or, on the contrary, is this how our psyche perceives this world? And my childhood dream, that when I re-read a book, I find a different plot in it, does not work because of these rules of life. But you can always find a new perspective, find new experiences, experience a different impression from the same plot. Due to the complexity and inexhaustibility of the world, it can be considered constantly changing. And even our experience, which is inevitable because it has already been experienced, becomes different in today’s new experiences. This is how I try to circumvent the laws of time and space. The laws of a narrative told seemingly once and for all. And I open the book...