From the author: The author of this material is Olya Baranova, a participant in the seminar on dolmens “The Path of the Goddess” (October 2010). At the seminar, among other things, archetypal work on the technologies of Vladislav Lebedko took place. The seminar was led by V. Lebedko’s student, psychologist and practicing healer Olga Mazur. Olga Baranova, participant in the “Path of the Goddess” training. Call of the Dolmens From the very beginning, I clearly knew that I really needed to go to the “Path of the Goddess” - a seminar on dolmens. I didn’t know why - there was just a CALL. All the preliminary circumstances went without a hitch: vacation, selection of equipment, Sheremetyevo airport, and now... we are there. We get off the bus in the village of Pshada: it’s a dead rural night, the mountains are getting dark... This morning we were in the metropolis. And here is an unreal world! Until you understand what’s different here: peace, silence, dogs bark occasionally. This is my first time here, everything is unfamiliar and I like everything so much. Grapes hang over the porch, smelling of pine needles and mushrooms. The host of the seminar, Olga, meets you, and a late-night dinner in the fresh air is ready: soup and local fruits. I listen: it’s like the sea is roaring, or is it waves of energy rolling in from the mountains? The mood is high! Mysterious dolmens await us - megaliths, generous to help those who turn to them. And I still have no idea what shocks practicing in the place of Power will turn out to be for me. Experience. Lots of experience! Morning has come. And unreal life began! I still remember it vividly like yesterday. From early morning until late evening we were busy hiking through fabulous places, communicating with dolmens, joint energy practices, and working with mandalas. When the hike ended, a bath or massage session awaited us. When our time together ended, we received an assignment for individual practice. And then they gathered in a circle again to analyze the experience. It seems that our group was formed in such a way that all the participants knew for sure that they had not just come to relax. We got up early, kept kitchen duty, didn't squeak in the rain, and took care of each other. A week passed without a hint of the slightest quarrel. Yes, back in Moscow we received instructions to be sensitive to our states - uncontrollable outbursts of emotions can occur in places of Power! But, apparently, all the energy received from the dolmens was spent not on unproductive emotionalization, but on the practices with which we were loaded up to our ears! It is impossible to tell about EVERYTHING that I experienced during the week of the seminar. Each day was equivalent to a year in terms of intensity of experience. I will describe only those points of the seminar that made the greatest impression on me personally. So, day one. Orientation on the spot, we climb high up the mountain, the first processes with mandalas, the first acquaintance with dolmens, the first sensory exercises. Of all the things we did, I was especially drawn to a simple practice, we did it in the forest, “Follower-Leader.” Insanely interesting, it carries two meanings for me at once. The first is when you act as a follower, thoughts arise that this is the ideal model of life... Remember the goal, tune in to its implementation and follow the course. You know that you are being led, you understand that the more sensitively you hear the signs, the less you stumble... The outcome of the path is always positive, at least in terms of gaining experience. The ability to remember purpose is something that, in my opinion, modern people lack so much. I go to bed with these thoughts. The power of place covers me with a blanket. My work has begun. In search of Feminine Power Let's move on. Or just deeper. In the forest, around a fire, not far from a group of dolmens, we listen to an interesting and unusual theoretical block about the collective unconscious, about the essence of female strength and its importance for men and women. About the different archetypes of goddesses and how they manifest in us. Afterwards - the first meditation on the dolmen. On the topic of realizing your femininity. I find a dolmen that resonates with my state, greet it, as Olga taught, get in touch and sit down to work. Will it work - won't it work? Will he accept or not? Will it help or won't it help? Brainunobtrusively spins these questions, and then, unexpectedly, a model of the difficult relationship of my parents pops up in my head... The image of my father, the unbearable sacrifice of my mother for me... I realize more clearly than ever that I am wildly offended by my mother. For what? The first option is the thought that I am offended that she left me alone early (my mother died when I was 14 years old). Then the understanding comes that this is a resentment for the fact that she built her relationship with her father incorrectly, did not divorce on time, and all this led to such a sad outcome. The realization was surprising for me, because I always believed that my main problem was the inability to come to terms with my mother’s passing. And here, it turns out, is a completely different story... The time for working with dolmens ends, we gather in a group and stomp home, practicing attention along the way. I’m trying to understand what happened to me now, I understand a little, this is not what I expected at all... The second meaning for me is that practice is a projection of the relationship between mother and child. A range of sensations came when I was in the role of host. Caring, the desire to patronize, but at the same time the desire to show the world in all its manifestations and give freedom to explore it independently - what could be simpler and more difficult? How to find that fine line in which the combination of the child’s freedom and the degree of mother’s care will be ideal? I haven’t found the answer yet. Breakfast... And here is the practice of the day: REVIEW. On the dolmen, respectively. Energy procedure for untying energy knots. Before the start - preparation, discussion of what is happening to us, we sit in the grass. I remember the topic of resentment, emotions creep in, I cry... It turns out that it still hurts! The topic of recapitulating relationships with men is not discussed for me. Relationship with mom. Let's go... Help me, spirits! Before entering this dolmen group, we ask the spirits for forgiveness for the gross incident of energy invasion committed by the participants of the May group. We receive a sign that we are allowed into space. Let's get to work...I choose a dolmen that will agree to help me in practice. I am drawn to the most distant dolmen... I obey. I settle down next to him and calm my mind. I begin to breathe and watch how childhood events emerge... I am about 4-5 years old. I work through the chain of emerging scenes, and then my brain, suddenly turning on, says that this is all wrong, and I should have started not from childhood, but from the present moment. Well, yes, I thought. You are right. And I began the recapitulation with the most painful, in my opinion, event of the near future - the day of my mother’s death... After crying heartily and working through several main points, I realized that the work was over. It was as if I woke up and my eyes opened by themselves. I return to the group. Everyone is a little crazy, each has their own experience... we crawl into the house. We are waiting for a bathhouse and mandatory grounding practices - massage of the carcass of our beloved body. Let's pick up the pieces! And dinner that day was very tasty: cooking also became a practice for us. Conversation with the God of Death The next day became an unexpected apotheosis of work for me. A day of working with archetypes... Even in Moscow, before leaving, Olga said that if the group is ready for serious work, then perhaps we will work with the structures of the unconscious (including gods) directly. The group was formed, the processes were strong, the topic of archetypes that manifest themselves through us interested everyone. And so... In the afternoon, after practicing on the dolmens, we gathered in a sunny meadow. I modestly sit under a tree in complete prostration, not yet recovered from dense impressions, I do not understand how to resolve my experiences... I am immersed in myself and follow what is happening in the group with only the edge of my attention. For archetypal work, I go to the center of the circle of Light and tell my story. Olga chooses the god Hades to work with her case and performs a simple archetype focusing ritual. Nobody understands what is about to happen. But the space changes, everyone freezes, the presence of the god of the underworld is clearly felt! Sveta begins her conversation with Hades.However, something unexpected happens here. Hades, through the oracle, reports that he cannot help Sveta, because he has no relationship with her, but he wants to tell me something. - Are you ready to talk? - Olga asks. Completely stunned, I go out and sit down opposite the oracle. We greet each other, Olga asks Hades to convey his message. And only one word comes out of the oracle’s mouth for me: “Small.” Here I am completely stunned, with difficulty formulating the question: “What exactly is small?” The fortunes are small, he replies. I'm shocked. That is, I don’t understand deeply enough what’s happening to me or I don’t feel as deeply as I should? Here Olga joins the conversation. He asks Hades if I have some kind of connection with him, if I entered into an agreement with him. The answer should be positive. When asked what I was looking for, why I once needed his strength, the answer comes: “In order to isolate myself from my mother.” Oh, how, I think... I didn’t expect... Olga asks him if I can terminate the contract now , return the rented power to Hades, changing the “alignment of forces” in my soul, He answers positively. She asks my opinion - I also agree.. (after all, my mother has been gone for a long time - why should I continue to fence myself off from her). I connect my hands with the hands of the oracle, and begin to give power to Hades... I cry, I feel a stream gathering throughout my body and coming out through my palms. I remember my mother... I don’t know, I can’t understand how long this goes on, but at one moment I suddenly stop crying. Something has changed. The thought flashes that everything is over, and then... I hear Olga say that now the reverse flow will begin, part of my soul will return to me... I think that I relaxed too early. The flow does not flow, the body is in spasms - as happens during respiratory processes. Olga helps. Then it begins. Now spasms twist my fingers, energy flows into my body... I roar again. No other action can convey what is happening. And again, at one moment, all emotions suddenly stop. It's all over. A feeling of fullness and reunification with the rejected part covers me... I thank Hades, who wishes me love, happiness and joy... We say goodbye to God. I quietly crawl back to my place - under a tree. I still don’t fully understand what happened, but I understand: something happened for which I really needed to get to this seminar and the dolmens. The girls, amazed by what they saw, are trying to ask me questions: how I feel, what’s wrong with me happening? I can't answer any of them. Olga explains that it will take time to realize what happened, and that the process of final alignment of the energy structure can continue for more than one week. - And what exactly can change in life, since mother is no longer there anyway? - Relationships with mother are a very significant symbol,” says Olga. - If a woman closes herself off from her own mother and does not accept her, then most likely she does not accept her own feminine nature and cannot express it. Because in fact, first of all, you close yourself not from the real mother, but from a certain part within yourself, which the mother symbolizes. And mom was no longer there, but you still closed yourself off. From what, from whom? This part, which you rejected as a mother, can have many meanings: the belief that the world is kind, that the world is good, generous with energy, trust. Shutting yourself off from your mother can mean closing yourself off from all the nurturing energy of the universe. Now you have removed the barrier that for many years held back the fusion with this part that was so eager to join you. This is a huge transformation in the psyche, in the energy state, and therefore in fate. It happened because you were already ready for it! And how what happened now will manifest itself at the level of events, you will see for yourself later. I vaguely remember what happened on that day, the processes of the other participants. Farewell to the dolmens And again exciting information about another level of understanding of female energy... Hypostases of the goddess Kali, the first meditation with Yantra. A new, unusual experience. 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