People with narcissistic pathology deny the importance and value of past experiences and the presence of a “childhood.” Childhood refers to a period of some infantilism that threatens the narcissistic grandiose ego, showing its weaknesses and making it humiliated. The narcissist has a fantasy that he did not have a childhood phase and that he was always an adult, self-sufficient. Any attempts to turn to childhood memories are met with disgust, outbursts of aggression, and devaluation in the pathological narcissist. It is as if the narcissist remains forever bottled up in the primary infantile phantasm, where he is the center of the Universe and God. Because any other connections with reality, and indeed attempts to establish any object relationships, confront the narcissist with unbearable frustration and other unbearable affects. Such as with envy and humiliation. The very possibility of recognizing the presence of a “childhood” in a narcissist carries a threat to his weak, unformed ego. The narcissist cannot accept the idea that he is weak, imperfect, vulnerable. His Ego is too weak to face reality and create dependent relationships with other objects - attachment for the narcissist seems to be exploitation and complete capture of him, a limitation that he cannot endure and always tries to overcome and ignore. Therefore, by ignoring the phase of “collapse of primary narcissistic fantasy,” the narcissist creates the illusion that if there is no childhood, then he will never have to grow up. A logical and mental paradox is growing up without the very fact of growing up, as a denial, on the one hand, of the presence of vulnerability (albeit in the past), and a denial of needs, on the other. The narcissist is initially self-sufficient and omnipotent in his fantasies. The narcissist has a fantasy of “return” to any state, that nothing is gone forever, due to this the concept of “childhood” is pushed out of consciousness. This is due to the impossibility of grief, the phase of compassion is inaccessible to pathological narcissism due to the absence of the Other and the recognition of its otherness, the recognition of even its hypothetical claim to existence. The fantasy of omnipotence, which permeates the entire existence of the narcissist, reversing time, power over death, denial of the difference between sexes and generations - in the inner world of a narcissist, everything is possible except recognition of powerlessness, internal or external weakness, vulnerability. But also the narcissist in his world does not have the ability to show love, empathy, compassion. The narcissist feels unconscious envy of those who are able to show, experience and give their love free of charge. Immense and unbearable envy, since in the narcissist’s real childhood he did not receive it from his parents, he could only gain their admiration through achievements, successes, deeds. The narcissist's personality itself never had significance and did not receive reflection, and therefore did not find its form, facing parental boredom and experiencing its own emptiness. It’s like a person who hasn’t seen his reflection in the mirror, an invisible person who needs material attributes or grandiose deeds and successes to show his importance. What sets him apart from the void. The narcissist is too strongly focused on the material world, ignoring his internal mental representation, following the same template, which was initially set by his parents as a standard. The childhood of a narcissist is like an empty cradle, where there was no identification of oneself through another and through the absorption of his immediate, unconditional love and the formation of healthy object connections and attachments. As well as the representation of external objects into internal ones. On the one hand, object connections are dangerous, since initially the mother did not give enough of what the child needed and the need was pathologically mixed with feelings of hatred and frustration, poisoning the significant object forever. On the other hand, the narcissist is deathly afraid of rejection of himself, which will mean the complete collapse of his personality, overthrow into Tartarus. Narcissus is like an empty.