Breaking the brains of your psychologist is not an easy task. Psychologists are cunning people, they have heard enough. You can’t handle them with your bare hands. But one day a saboteur wakes up inside you. You still don’t understand what’s happening. Half the time of the session you wind around like a hare, confusing your tracks in the snow. You feel like it's work. In fact, it is avoiding it. The saboteur within us protects the vulnerable part of our personality. From wounds, falls, losses. Protects what is valuable and important. Something that should not be shown to anyone. The saboteur protects against pain. From loss of protection, from interference. He is on guard for something so early and sick that he knows one thing for sure - no one is allowed there, not even a psychologist. Even a psychologist you trust. All.Point. The world is infuriating, everything is wrong, but you will not break through. I am here for a reason, I am needed, I am important, I protect life. Or rather, a shaky and fragile structure, made by small, inept hands, which supports this life. The saboteur is always on our side. But the fact is that he himself needs protection, support and acceptance. He will never admit it, he will break and destroy everything, squirm and break free. But he needs a wise adult who will help him bear the unbearable, heavy burden. Because a saboteur is created by a child. Always. And in the end we grow out of it. And we try to repress and forget. We try not to meet him. He's difficult. He's harmful. He confuses and gets in the way. He is touchy. Wicked. Naughty. He may laugh or cry, scream or stomp his feet. He can pretend that he is not him. Or that he helps and tries. Or that it does not exist. The adult part of the personality is capable of protecting all of our inner children. Even those who claim that they do not need any protection. That they themselves are strong and brave and know better how we should live. And they act for our benefit. How can we understand that a saboteur has turned on? Sometimes we ourselves do not notice it. A psychologist will understand. The process will not proceed from the word at all. The contact will be broken. Lots of resistance and aggression. There are a lot of contradictions and avoidance of processes. If the session does not go well, then someone needs it. So there is something important behind this. The terrible secret of a little man who does not realize that it is hard for him, but copes as best he can with his childhood strength and resources. He was once used to living like this. He grows up and continues to think that this is normal. The most important thing you need to know is that he doesn’t need pity. He needs more. In recognizing your importance. Attention. And a real serious, genuine interest and attitude. In respect of your dignity. Your “I”. If you feel protest and resistance, do not rush to run away from therapy. There, further, is the most interesting and significant. Next there is a meeting with someone important. With a new self. The saboteur will try to blow the mind of the psychologist more than once. Even against your conscious will and contrary to your values ​​and beliefs. The goal of therapy is to regain this part of yourself and become whole. Despite the presence of darkness that has been repressed for so long. To shed light. Make it visible. Become big. You can get a space of support, unconditional acceptance, and the experience of caring attitude in personal therapy. Write to me on WhatsApp +79166981481 Personal blog "Enchanted Soul" is always in touch. Psychologist Ekaterina