From the author: Orthodox magazine "Sixth Sense" No. 1 of 2010 And on the website "Living Word" Now it will begin... Well, here it is. Mom comes into the room. For some reason he stands silently and sighs. “Get up. It's time for school." What am I to her, a nameless creature? I also have a name, by the way. It’s probably already unpleasant for her to even say it. Why did you just give birth to me? To tug and read instructions? OK OK! I’m already getting up... to your school. How can you manage without words about behavior and attention at the door? It would be better if she gave me money for cigarettes... I’ll have to shoot again. Well, yes, of course, I’ll come straight home after school! To meet again with your reproachful look and lectures at lunch? No way! I'd better go to Tanya. She has a computer and Contact. Well, I came late, so what? Who comes home early now? Did you promise at lunchtime? Think for yourself why you promised and why you didn’t come! (As if you don't know) How are things at school? So you ask as if you are really interested in this - in fact, you are just looking for a reason to say that I am wrong again. You, at my age, studied well, obeyed your parents, revered your teachers, and didn’t go out until the morning. All my mistakes are terrible and incomprehensible to my mind, and my successes are insignificant. Why should we talk at all? They would have left me alone already. I can't live any other way. “Why did the teacher call?” Nice question! I called you and you’re asking me. It’s clear that she’s also worried about me: I’m late, I smoke, I play truant, I’m not wearing the right makeup and clothes, my cell phone is more expensive than school... Anything is more expensive to me than school! Prison, not school. In general, everything is a prison! And the house too. How I want to grow up and run away from here! So as not to see or hear all of you! ------------------------------ Now it will begin... Well, here it is. I go into my girl's bedroom. ... Things are scattered. Half of them are strangers. I wonder where ours are? Rich smell of cigarettes. You will lie again that you were “smoked.” It’s better that I don’t even ask – I’ll just wash it. How can I persuade you not to wear so much makeup and wash your face at night? (you'll ruin your skin) What an adult! I’ll just stand there for another minute, I’ll be with you in peace and love, even if you don’t know about it - you still won’t understand how much I want it. Why can't we be closer to you? Don't you feel how afraid I am for you? You are the most precious thing I have. I’m ready to gnaw the throat of anyone, and especially that slippery boy with whom you make out in the entrance. How can you be so blind and not see that he is like this with everyone... Tell you? And widen the gap between us even further? You will still stay with him, and you will do everything as you planned, no matter what I say, no matter what I threaten, no matter how much I scream. But I’ll say it anyway - what if you hear me? Now I’m waking you up for school, what’s in it? Are you learning anything there? Serving hours. How can I explain to you, fool, that you NEED to study? That you will not receive anything from your friends except wounds on your heart and days lived without a trace. And time will be lost, and everything you even knew, you will forget. And you have your whole life ahead, and you will have to live it yourself. Well, that's it, the minute is over. I even stopped noticing the smell of cigarettes. And I clearly feel only yours - childish, sweet and warm, which for some reason always makes me want to sleep. Get up.------------------------------Video course by Svetlana Migacheva Resources of LonelinessThis video course on loneliness was prepared by an experienced psychologist, Gestalt -therapist and teacher - Svetlana Migacheva. It will be useful both to practicing psychologists and to people who just want to stop suffering from loneliness.