Linde N.D. New educational session with an oncology patient I’m writing it down from fresh tracks, as long as I remember. I have been working with this client for a long time, almost a year. This is not the same M. that I wrote about earlier. She is already in the fourth stage and practically nothing can be done to treat her. She is very young, only 24 years old, and has a rare disease - uterine sarcoma. Naturally, everything that is possible has already been removed... At the moment, she has tumors in the lungs and peritoneum... In December of this year, she came to me for a session complaining of acute pain in the abdominal area. This pain was like many sharp daggers sticking out with their blades upward, as if from the ground, and digging into her stomach from below. We then determined that these daggers were her denial of femininity because her mother always encouraged her to be masculine. When, as a result of working through this topic, the daggers turned into beautiful flowers, the pain in her stomach disappeared, and from December to May the pain did not recur. The last CT scan showed some improvement in the lungs, but still some growth of tumors in the abdomen. This time she complained that the pain periodically returned when she was nervous, but then went away. She recently experienced severe anxiety while applying for a visa to Germany for a friend. The anxiety clearly caused pain in the lower abdomen, at the moment there were still discomfort sensations. I asked her to remember how she and her friend collected documents and felt anxious. Immediately she felt renewed pain, although not as strong. I decided to teach her a method of pain correction using the imaginary smell of pain and suggested that she imagine the smell of her anxiety or pain. She immediately smelled gunpowder, although she immediately said that she didn’t know what gunpowder smelled like. This made the pain a little worse, but I insisted that she continue to smell her imaginary smell, because I knew that the smell should gradually improve, turn into the smell of freshness, and the pain would go away. She continued to smell the smell of gunpowder, but then the unexpected happened. She clearly felt an unpleasant putrid smell and saw an image as if she was standing in a basement on some rotten boards covered with nasty moss. I asked why there were boards there, and she, amazed at her discovery, said that she had buried something under these boards! Her eyes widened, and she suddenly realized that she had hidden something important under the boards. Naturally, I asked what she hid there? She didn’t want to talk, but then she admitted that there was some part of herself hidden there that she had already forgotten about. She didn’t even want to see that part of the personality that she had buried, because it was bad! Still, I persuaded her to sit this part of the personality on an empty chair, characterize it, and then move to that chair herself, and stand at least on time with this previously buried part of yourself. It turned out that she really liked being this part of her personality; she had a lot of untapped resources. It turned out that this personality allows you to be confident, defend your rights, and show a certain degree of selfishness. The client considered all these traits to be bad and at one time carefully excluded them from herself, especially since her mother was very persistent, corrosive, always got her way and harshly punished her in childhood. She struggled with these traits, although she admitted in horror that she realized that there was a lot of her mother in her. I said that she could modify part of her personality if she didn’t like it, but not necessarily eliminate it, so to speak, cut it off. To clarify, I told her my favorite parable about the “squished dog’s tail” and the anecdote about the doctor who cut everything off... This had a strong influence on the client. She realized that she had indeed always acted on the principle of “cutting off” and destroying something “wrong.” I explained to her that our shortcomings are often a continuation of our strengths, and gave examples of how, in sessions with her, we converted anger into the energy of kindness and development. All this “in total” became a discovery for her and a revolution in her life..